Letters Between Sundays

Heres a little update about my life recently.

I dont have a boyfriend, I am however waiting for Gods timing, trying to stay patient and not take over control. I have no idea what my career plan is, I graduate in seven months with a degree that I didn’t even want. Again, I am waiting for Gods perfect timing, he has a plan for my life and I am trying to wait patiently. After I graduate, theres really nothing keeping me here so why not move. Should I move? Been thinking a lot lately about my future. Im not close with God right now, I have been off and on with reading my bible and talking to him in my day to day life. I know why, but im trying to fix it. Im currently on pause for righting my book, starting school has been stressful and trying to find the motivation to write is difficult. Right now my baking business is on limbo, I haven’t been getting orders like I usually do and thats very discouraging and Im wondering if its even what God wants me to do. My mommy is my best friend right now, I have came to the conclusion that the only person that has my back (besides God) is my mom. She has been there for everything detail in my life, and she has been right about everything. And I mean everything. Im thinking about looking for a different church, my church is great, I love the older folk and how much wisdom and guidance I get but I feel like I dont belong.

This season of my life is confusing, ill be 22 with a bachelors degree, not knowing what to do next. I know God will aways provide, but I cant help think that maybe I dont deserve it. I know me thinking this way doubts Gods ability, this self guilt I have for ¨being behind in life,¨ or not have a ¨ ten year plan,¨ or not being married at the ¨ right age.¨ I am really confused and lost in this moment of my life. I dont know what Im doing and if im doing anything right, I know I need to draw back to God, and I will eventually. I know he has a plan, but its my fault if we stop on the path, in order´ for me to chase a butterfly. Gods waiting patiently for me to come back, I just need to stop chasing a dream that will lead me to the edge of the world.

I need to have faith in the Lord, he will guide me on the best pathway of my life. Right now, im sitting at work, wondering what tomorrow will bring. Or I think a better saying would be ¨ What opportunities will I have to praise God tomorrow.

– Gods plan.